There was a time in my life where the thought of having access to a computer whenever I want seemed nothing less than absolute peak of happiness. I now have multiple laptops and phones, really good devices too. All of this seemed inconceivable to me when I was 12 years old.

Now as you grow older, the idea of this ideal peak of happiness evolves as well, I can't exactly recall what it would've been like in my twenties but it definitely had something along the lines of having a girlfriend along with interesting work.

And now when I think about what peak of happiness might be, I can't really tell. However in terms of things I'm looking forward to, Owning a home is definitely on top whatever else that list might have. A close second would be to not leave behind any debt in my old age. Both of these things to some extent end up working against each other.

Another thing that I've been trying to incorporate into my daily life is contentment. This is has been a frustrating experience thus far, in my inability to practice this every day or forgetting about this altogether. Now, Having a bucket load of money is definitely good to have but when you truly accept where you come from, that is, not having a pencil to write or not wanting to wash your jeans because if you do, you don't have anything nice to wear until it dries off, and to having all of your basic needs met, there isn't much point in complaining or wishing for more, now is there?

Wanting more is something perhaps deeply rooted in what it means to be a human. And I don't think it's a bad thing per se however if this thing takes over you, troubles you and puts you into existential dread, then taking a pause and looking at where you come from is important, isn't it? The current, or the now is so much better compared to the past, at least in terms of means of survival.

To go beyond this should be the goal, wanting this would again end up with wanting something else the moment you achieve it.

It's a vicious cycle indeed, and I'm doing what I can to tread carefully.

So what exactly should we want out of life?

Thoughts?

There's a lot more i had in my to write onto this however setting this whole thing up took longer than i anticipated. Being slightly better than what i was yesterday is progress. Ikigai in motion.